rang up the STI clinic to find my results they checked it was me then put me on hold which felt like forever but was only like a minute....then the results turned out..........wait for it.......ALL CLEAR ive got a smile from ear to ear god my stress levels have gone down big tim e i shal cut down a bit on the whiskey now. Overall this has taught me a lesson "dont be silly rap hid willy" as they say on that advert and now i no why they spend all that money on them campaigns lol. also i dont have to walk the 3 miles from the train station again up hill

so its my birthday next weekend suposed to be getting with my x lads best mate which should be quite good because he is a really nice lad but i no its not the best thing to do but at the moment im going by the rule "think of number 1 first and only trust number one" because i mean everyone else just lets you down

also at the moment although i have the relief of knowing im clear there is still the thing with the perants who are slowly trapping me in more and more firstly they no longer let me go out with the lads because they say they are a bad influence but since i have been with them i hardly drink, im not in a room full of smoke all the time and i can tell you now the size of these lot not one other person would lay a wrong hand on me......also they have taken my camera off me which has made me go nuts because my photography helps my express my feelings (yes i no that sounds nuts)but the reason why they took it off me was because i back combed my hair so i had an affro but my thick liquid eyeliner on and was doing a sort of emo sadness sort of shoot so i did loads of test shots to see which setting worked best and which light worked best in rooms and i was only in my bra and i showed her the pics and she could see that the pics were only from my neck up and the only reason i was in my bra was coz i hadnt put my top on yet coz i didnt want to get eyeliner on it.......so i really duno what the hell else i can do its driving me crackers coz i feel so trapped

sorry ive been neglecting this blog over the last few days just been rather busy but i shall not neglect my readers in future...write tomorow

well well well went to a bloody fancy dress party last night (not my favorite type of party)but it was alright although it was one of those non alcohol party's which i class as more of a meeting with baloons and cake

now before you think god this lassie is one of those teenage cider riders who gets sloshed on the streets! no i most certianly am not, i like the odd pint in the pub on a friday night and dont believe in the hole lets get so sloshed we make a tit out of our selves and cant remember what we did the next morning and i also say if you dont want to get taken advantage of then dont get sloshed! also you can make a bit of money off being the most sober one in the place because as these people who are totAlly rat arsed go to pull a wod of cash out their pocket to pay for there next drink they 8 times out of 10 drop some of the money and dont notice (good tip there lol)

anyhoo since i last posted i have totally finished with the old x lad and we are still mates but things a proceeding with his mate which i shouldnt do but hey its better than nothing until i find a honest nice man (if there is one out there).....one tip to men consideration and showing you care is key to a good relationship even if it is somthing small

also the second thing is that i want to tell the girls that are in schools these days is that jealousy can be a very bad thing i have had death threats when lassies in my year found out that i started modelling,photographers were saying to me that it happens to every model they have met but this is the worst they have ever seen i mean it was bloody depressing i was thinking god i have a chance to make easy money and have some lovley pictures done but is it really worth it when people are trying to beat me up because of it i mean one person tryed 2 smash a bloody glass bottle off me and i mean i would understand if i was being all big headed about it but i really wasnt i didnt say nothing about it.....but overall i thank them for doing that because it has made me more determined to make somthing of this hole modeling malarkie also i defo found out who my friends were and also it has overall made me a stronger person also it made me feel that i defo had one up on all those lassies because of there pettyness....any young aspiring models out there please dont let these petty little girls bring you down just think its because you have somthing that every girl would love to have STAY STRONG

wednesday is STI results day god i cant wait to have the relief of knowing

well wednesday is the STI results day which should be a relief, wey atleast i can learn from my mistakes

now getting the hang of this hole bloging thing but the life is still crazyfied.

well its 5 days till results day, not really that worried about it because yes i may have somthing but its all easily fixed.

aint spoke to the old x boyfriend today he aint stopped apoligising and asking me to get back with him after i dumped him since he kissed thaT other lassie when he was pissed and i wasnt even there his mate who he was out on the town with took a picture of it and sent it to me saying look what your lads up to which was rather funny as his mate who is 23 :O now wants me to get with him......not that im complaining because he is rather nice buuuuuuut never even thought he would be vaugly interested in me and its a rather bitchy thing to do to his mate. do you think i should get back with my lad as it was only a kiss and we had somthing good and got along really well and im positive its a one off? or sleep with his best mate who is rather quite alot nicer and get my revenge??????? give me your opinion!!!

i relised today that as soon as you tell men you are a model they are much more interested they always ask me if iam one and im like yes but i just think it gives men a diffrent impresion of you i think as soon as they know that a thing kicks in in the back of their mind that says "if i shag her i can now say i have shagged a model" so from now on the modeling is not going to be known to any male until i know they aint just after a shag!!!

so next instalment coming either tomorow or sunday depends if im going down pub or not

hope you find my blogs interesting, rather good therapy this blogging as i can get all my thoughts out and have no risk of anyone telling anyone as my identity is hiden

well before we start iam going to apoligise for me spelling, iam 15 and managed to write collage instead of college on my college application (education today....brilliant)

the names petula (pet for short) hate (you get the play on words PET HATE lol).....that obviously isnt my real name but any hooooo....i have been meaning to start bloging for quite a while about the things in overall life today that really dont half piss me off....so here comes the first installment

well yesturday i had to nick off from school to go to a bloody STI clinic (some nice lads in the waiting room i have to say) after a 3-some with two lads one of which was a legend in the bedroom and after about 45 mins we managed to get rid of the other lad and have crazy style sex for a further 2 hours after that so it was rather snazzyfied night overall.....

but anyhoo i went to the clinic and had to brake to the infertile x boyfriend that he could potentially have an STI (intresting convo) after i shagged him when i was drunk in his car, went to the clinic got all the tests and what not (get the results back on wednesday coming) got back to school and they had sused me for sciving off and rang the old perants so i showed them letter from the clinic and told them why i had been there which i thought following most confidentiality policys which i thought must have to apply to schools aswell as doctors. i asked my head of year who i was speaking to not to tell my perants why i had been there and she said she wouldnt but she goes and tells them so there has been hell on this morning

correct me if im wrong but does that not go against my rights or somthing? (comment if you know)

next instalment coming soon ...please keep reading and commenting with advice please